Thoughts on Departure.
I sit in quiet contemplation on my final night in California. Mere hours away from my flight, I find myself lost on what to do for the next few hours. My bags are packed. My ticket is ready. I look towards my closet and see so much empty space (not that it mattered anyway, I don't really own that many clothes). I find it amusing that I'll be living out of a red duffle bag for a month. Even more amusing is the fact that I feel no trepidation, no nervousness, no apprehensiveness in traveling across the country alone for one month. In fact, I find myself excited, even adrenalized by the idea. The number one question I hear from others in regards to my plight is something along the lines of this: "Wow that's so scary, aren't you scared?"
There's a level of contentment that I believe can only be achieved once you've fully accepted whatever situation you've found yourself in, especially if that situation involves a step into the complete unknown. In this case, the complete unknown being: a new state, with new people, in an industry that fully embodies the idea of "sink or swim," completely alone.
And yet, excitement still.
I am, however, not going to attempt to portray my step into the unknown in a misplaced veil of grandiose. I am not embarking on an adventurous tale of valor and wonder. I'm going across the country and taking this first step in the film industry not only because I WANT to do it, but more importantly because I HAVE to do it.
There is nothing else for me. All my life thus far (as short as it has been) has been building up to this first step. I've prepared myself. I feel no fear or nervousness simply because I knew this step would be taken.
This being said, I look forward to enjoying every step that's next, both the hard times and the good times. In the legendary words of one Mr. Ferris Bueller, delivered excellently by the wonderful Matthew Broderick:
"Life moves pretty fast. If you don't stop and look around once in awhile, you could miss it."
I'm excited. I'm prepared. I'm going to enjoy every second of it.